Do You Even Know Your Soul’s Name?

Do you even care that your soul has its own name—outside of the name you were handed in this physical world? Not your government name. Not your “role.” Not your identity on paper. I’m talking about the name that belongs to the presence that exists before the body and beyond the body. The part of you that carries weight, memory, meaning… and a whole different kind of power.

In this episode, I’m breaking down why most people never even think to ask that question—because we’ve been conditioned to treat the soul like something you “give away,” something you hand over to religion, authority, or a God outside yourself. And maybe that was done on purpose. Because if you truly remembered who you are, a lot of things in your life would change. The problem is: nobody’s coming to tell you. You have to want it. You have to chase it. You have to be willing to look at the knowledge that isn’t served to you in neat, mainstream packaging.

I explain the process of how my soul revealed itself to me: seeking taboo knowledge to compare and contrast what we’ve been taught, learning to trust intuition and synchronicities, building emotional logic and detachment, letting go of the need for validation, and stepping out of the fear of being judged for moving differently. I talk about fasting, celibacy, meditation, shifting away from medications and leaning into herbs, and why clearing your energy matters when you’re trying to hear your soul clearly.

But the biggest piece? Dreams. Because my soul’s name didn’t come from this world—it came through my dreams. And I’m not talking about soft, symbolic bedtime stories. I’m talking about dreams that felt like spiritual warfare, like I had to fight to take my power back. That’s why I keep saying: your dreams are a doorway—if you learn how to remember them, decode them, and move with the messages.

This episode is for anyone who feels like they’re more than a “meat suit,” more than a job title, more than a storyline someone else wrote for them. If you’re ready to stop being a victim to your trauma, stop outsourcing your authority, and start creating from the level of your soul—this is the path. And it starts with one question:

Do you want to know your soul’s name?

Transcript

 You know your soul's name, shit. Do you even care that your soul has its own name outside of this physical avatar that you've been in for how many years you've been alive? Your soul is its own presence outside of your body, and it has its own existence. It has a name that carries a lot of weight and tells a lot about who you are as a person.

Them, but you have to want to know that name for you to even figure out what the hell that name means. You have to understand that you have a soul, and most people have given their soul up to God to do what it wants to do with their soul. So they may not even have an option to learn their soul's name.

And maybe that was done by design. Maybe if you knew who you really were. A lot of shit would change in your existence, but you have to want to know these type of things 'cause they're not gonna come out and tell you. You, your soul has a name. Have you ever read anywhere that says your soul has a name outside of the name you've been given in this physical world?

I don't know. I don't. Nobody told me my soul had a name. I had to go out and figure that shit out on my own because I wanted to know more about who I was or what I was. More than the who. I know I'm something. I know I exist. But what do I exist as? What do you exist as? Are you just this physical meat suit that we carry around?

Are you more than that? Do you believe that there's more consciousness to you than just what you experience in this physical world? If you don't, some on you ain't shit I could do about that. But I know who I am, I learned my soul's name and I didn't learn it in in the, in this physical world. I learned it through my dreams.

Which dreams carry so much knowledge that people don't even understand. And I tell you, this dream was a fucking fantastical, amazing type of dream. It was like, uh, what's the show? Uh, the preacher and Harry Potter intertwined into one. And it was just all kind of crazy shit going on in that dream. But I learned who I was and my soul's name.

I understand the meaning and what it means to be me as a soul more than I understand what it means to be me. There's physical buy it I carry. But that's for me. For you. Do you know your soul's name? Do you even want to know your soul's name? I think you should. It may open up some shit within you that you didn't even know existed, because they don't tell us that our soul has a name.

They tell us we have a soul, but they tell us, give that soul over to God. Let him handle that, not let your soul guide you know your soul. They say, know yourself. Your soul is a part of yourself. You need to know all that shit. But if you've given your soul over to God, you may not get a chance to know that before you go out of this, uh, lifetime, maybe next lifetime, and you'll get to know your soul.

I guess I'll see you next lifetime. The process of my soul revealing itself to me. Knowledge was very important in this process. Me seeking knowledge and me seeking knowledge that will be considered taboo or knowledge that is not readily available to the mainstream. Because throughout our lifetimes, we've given all the knowledge that they think that we need it, and we are supposed to base our lives and decisions off of that knowledge.

But when you wanna step into your soul, you need more than just the basic physical knowledge that they give you. So I decided to start looking into witchcraft, voodoo magic, uh, fucking star seeds, uh, all type of conspiracy theories. And the reason was because I needed knowledge to compare and contrast to what I've already learned.

I can't make all my decisions just off of the knowledge that they gave me. So I needed as much knowledge that I could find to make these decisions about myself and my soul. So. I started the endless journey of seeking knowledge that isn't readily, isn't readily available and that most people don't even wanna talk about.

And I wasn't seeking this knowledge to practice anything or to do anything, but I wanted to see what was true about this stuff and what wasn't true. So I can make an informed decision because you have to understand, they tell us to make decisions off of the knowledge that they give us, and that's all we have.

And that's what we have to believe. And if you know the, the world that we live in, there's a lot of lies that's been told to us. So it was in my best interest to gain as much knowledge on the things I wanted to know pertaining to me, and to see how much that was true. And some of the shit I would step into the sea and some of it I wouldn't.

And that's how I made my choices off of that knowledge. And it, it was an endless journey and it's, it's gonna be an endless journey. And I'm, and throughout these videos, you're probably gonna hear me speak on the knowledge that I've learned endless amounts of times because I'm big on gaining knowledge constantly.

I'm a sponge. I want more, more, more, more, more, more. Gimme the knowledge. And that's the same way you should be on your journey to finding your soul as gaining as much knowledge about you. The things that they didn't tell you and the things that they did tell you to make an informed decision about who you truly are, not what they tell you.

You are intuition. We've all heard about intuition, and you have to trust in your intuition and the synchronicities that present themselves throughout your life. And when I say you have to trust your intuition, if your intuition tells you something is off. If you trust it, if your intuition tell you you need to go this direction, you go and you don't trust nobody else.

And even if people give you advice, your intuition will let you know if it, if it's good advice or if it isn't. And then you take it and you use it as you see fit, but you trust yourself and only yourself. Don't trust. No, don't even trust the shit I'm telling you. You go and research this shit yourself to find out what you need to know for you.

But if your intuition tell you, this guy might know what he's talking about. Let me listen and see what it says. It's telling you that for a reason. I'm not telling you shit for you to trust me. I'm telling you shit. For you to do the research yourself, to find out yourself, and then the synchronicities.

You've seen plenty of synchronicities in your life, and there's no such thing as a coincidence. Shit happens for a reason. And you know what you said. And for me, usually it'll be one or two ways. It usually be an instant synchronicity that I understand, or sometimes it'll be three or four little things that lead up to me like, ah, now all that shit makes sense when I put it all together.

It's almost like a puzzle that your mind gives you to put shit together because it, it can't just present you with certain things. Sometimes it has to make you chase after it. So for you to truly believe. In it. But you need to truly believe in yourself and in your intuition. The synchronicities, the little whispers that your soul tells you.

Don't do that. Go that direction. 'cause I've had many instances where I've listened to my intuition and I found success. I have times where I didn't listen to my intuition. I found myself in the fucking hospital on some dumb shit. I explained that in another video. But trust your intuition. Trust the synchronicities.

If it's in you, it's meant for you and you know it. And that's part of the process. That's how your soul connects with you and talks to you. But you have to trust in it. Emotional logic or what some people call emotional intelligence. To me it's the same thing. I just like logic. 'cause you, you, you're thinking a little bit more now with this, you have to.

Learn how to detach yourself from fucking everything. And people gonna say, oh, you're cold, you're detached, you're selfish, you're this, you're that. But it's not even that. It's about you understanding that people can trigger you, and sometimes people will trigger you intentionally and unintentionally, and you have to know how to handle those situations.

Sometimes you just gotta nod and say, okay, you're right. Sometimes you gotta do that. It's just that simple. It's not a very difficult thing to just tell somebody they're right, even if you don't feel that they're right. Your mind literally has to become a process and center for emotions and move on.

Understand what you're supposed to take from it and move on. Don't sit in those emotions. Don't be a victim to your emotions, energy, emotion. Let 'em pro process it and move it out. You have to be able to do that. And sometimes it's gonna look like you a cold motherfucker, but that's okay if that's what you have to do to protect your energy, that's a part of this journey.

And your soul understands that. And anyone that don't understand that, there's not much you can do. As long as you're being honest and truthful with them and yourself, there's not much more you can do besides that. You know what I'm saying? You can, you know. You don't want to attach your emotions because just think about when you've been emotional about some shit.

How far has it gotten you? Especially when you presenting it in a negative emotion. How far has that got you? And so that's a part of the process of connecting with your soul, is letting go of your emotions. 'cause your emotions doesn't process that your soul is out there somewhere doing its own thing, gaining knowledge, experiences, and giving you the information to be able to process those things.

Without the emotions, and that's what your soul is an em emotionless logical being. That's multidimensional. Now, embracing your soul is the next part of this process. To get your soul to truly reveal itself, because you have to understand that you're a multidimensional being and you are a soul, and you have to fully step into that and embrace that.

And at some point on this journey, I, I, I fully stepped into my soul. I was almost detached from this physical world all together. But I had to come back to reality and understand that I'm still in a physical body. I still have physical responsibilities, and I never quit on my responsibilities. I thought I was in some fantasy world, not at all, but I had to understand that my soul was something different than this physical world was prepared for, and I wasn't even prepared.

For this physical world as a soul, it's something that you have to build to,

like I said, in some aspects, you gotta detach from the physical aspects of this world. And again, that goes back to the emotional logic. People are gonna see you as cold and detached and all these different things, but it's not that. It is just that your soul moves completely different. And people are not used to people living as their soul.

So you have to be comfortable in your own skin to step out and do that. And if you're not ready to be ridiculed, to be judged, to be made fun of, to have all these different things happen to you and people say all these different things about you, you might not be really ready to to step into your soul.

'cause your soul understands that people judge, some people are still hurting. Some people haven't found themselves. Your soul understands that, and that's why your soul processes things completely different, and that's why it's in your best interest to step into your soul as soon as possible because it'll, it'll free you from putting those emotions on other people.

When you understand that some people have a hurt in a child and they haven't processed those emotions yet. And they don't know how to present them in, in a fashion that is palatable for, for emotional stability. But your soul understands that. And once you step into your soul, you know, you, you get a different perspective on the entire world.

For real.

Now removing yourself from religion and no longer needing validation. This is was a big hurdle for me because for me, on both sides of my family, my mom and dad's side, from the time of our existence in this country, when the government said my ancestors were born here. They've been indoctrinated into religion and still to this day, a lot of them, pretty much all of 'em.

I'm probably the only one like this. There may be some who are on the edges of what's going on with all this shit. What is what? What is he talking about? This? He knows something we don't know. But yeah, you have to completely eliminate yourself from religion and believing in a God outside of yourself.

And this is not even about being a God yourself. 'cause a lot of videos you heard me say, I'm my own God. And what that means is I remove that, that religious God from outta my mind, and I let my soul sit on the throne of my life and take charge of my life. I let my soul have all that. But again. All of the, the reason I was able to do all of this with confidence is because I sought knowledge about these different things.

A lot of knowledge that I sought to see if, if I remove this guy that brought me a lot of trauma, a lot of pain, some success, some wins. You know, I can't knock that. But if I let my soul sit on the throne, what could I accomplish? What could I achieve? How could I heal mentally? Physically, emotionally, how could I heal all those things if I allowed my soul to step in?

And again, when you do this type of thing, you're gonna get a lot of ridicule. People are gonna call you a lot of names. People are gonna think things about you because you don't believe in the same thing that they believe in. And that's where that need for validation comes. If you need people to validate who you are, then you ready to stay in the physical body.

You ready to just be a physical person. You're not ready to be out here and be a fucking soul living in the physical world. If you need validation from somebody else to tell you who you are, if you've done the research and gained the knowledge, you don't need nobody to tell you shit about you because you know who you are.

And that's why it was so easy for me to remove religion outta my life. Not need validation. 'cause at one time I, I thought I needed those things, but those things didn't gimme what I wanted. You know, those things had me seeing myself as a shy, timid. A person who can't speak up for itself didn't protect himself, but once my soul stepped in, my soul was like, fuck all that.

We about to handle this shit like it's supposed to be handled and you don't need nobody else to validate what you say and what you do as long as you moving from a peer place. Can't nobody say shit. They could talk shit, but they know the truth. So you have to be ready for that type of shit. And removing religion is gonna cause a lot of grief.

Be, especially if you know a lot of people and deal with a lot of people who are involved in a religious mindset. But that's where your soul comes into play. That's what gaining the knowledge comes into play. And once you accept the fact that you're your own guy, you have to accept that the fact that you're gonna be your own devil.

But the only thing you need to understand about that is when you're, your. When you, once you become your soul, you realize you don't have a need for a guide or a need for a devil because your soul understands how to move, how to treat people. Your soul has the morals, the values, the, the, the code of conduct for itself because it, it always gonna seek peace.

So it understands if I give out peace in, in turn, I shall receive peace. And if I don't receive peace, poof. I'm gone like magic. So that's what that, you know that, that God, that religious, you don't need all those things once you become your soul. But again, you have to find that knowledge to understand that type of shit.

When it comes to fasting, honestly, that's something that I never really put any thought into doing. I never say I wouldn't do it, but I never really was like, oh, how fast. But once I started to step into my soul, my soul said, you need to purge your body. You need to change your lifestyle. And, and that was part of prioritizing my health.

So I said, fuck it, I'll start fasting. And the first time it wasn't too, too bad. But then the more I did it, the easier it became to the point where I wanted to make it a part of my life regularly. Like sometimes maybe eat once a day. Sometimes I might not even eat that day. Then sometimes I'll fast for a quarter from three to five, six days.

It honestly, it kept getting longer and longer each quarter, and now it's to the point where I don't, I just, my body tells me it's time and I just start fast and I don't even think about it. You say fast, I'm fasting. Well, it's my, my soul, because there may be something going on in, in my ORIC field that I need to.

Really tone, tune into, and that's what fasting does. It helps your body tune into itself, tune into the the surroundings, pull into that ether, gain that knowledge again, that go that knowledge. And again, I had to do research about these things to understand how it affect me and what could, what could, could, could happen when I do these things.

And once the first time I experienced it, then I started working out. I was like, shit, I feel better than I've ever felt. Then after I fasted and I started eating, I was like, shit, why did I eat? I was feeling good, but that taught me how to eat better as I fasted and not just put anything back into my system.

I, one of the main things FA fasting helped me with was removing gluten from my life because gluten didn't do anything for me. It really didn't, and it does nothing for you besides. Fill you up. If you look up the nutritional facts on gluten, you'll find out what it means and you do that yourself.

Everybody. You want gluten, you do what you do. But I found it wasn't a, a good choice for me, so I removed it, which helped my body immensely and back to prioritizing my health, that that was when I got back into the gym. More because before I used to work out and I worked out to keep myself looking decent so I can pull some ladies when I wanted to, but I wasn't worried about being super fit.

But once I started doing this shit for myself, no, I said if I'm gonna present myself and I'm gonna run around calling myself a God in the physical form, when people, when I look at myself, I wanna see a guide to myself, I wanna see that superhero. I wanna see that super villain that I claim to be when I look at myself in the mirror.

And when I present myself, I want people to say, oh man, I don't really give a shit what nobody say about what I do, but it was for me and it's for you. Like that's why I started going five times a week, stretching every day, doing some type of physical activity because if I'm gonna present myself as something I need to look at, look like, that's something I can't just say, say I'm this and not even look like what I think a guy should look like in a physical form.

And that's why I did what I did. Not for anyone else but me. 'cause when I was doing it for other people, shit, I barely putting any work. I was like, fuck it, that's good enough. I ain't got that much fat on me so I ain't, you know, I ain't, this ain't that. So I could be able to pull some honeys, no problem.

But once I got past that point, or just worrying about that shit skyrocketed. Now speaking of pulling honeys. Let's talk about another part of the process that I went through, which is celibacy. And this was an important thing for me because a lot of my life I was chasing after women, I even made the point to say that I did, the little bit of working out that I did was so I could pull women.

It wasn't for my health. It was so I could look decent enough for a woman to say, oh yeah, I give 'em some. And that was the problem. I was always chasing that. I give them something and I need to take that and take that energy back to myself. 'cause I was always giving it out. 'cause I was always looking for something.

I was always looking for that attachment. And like I say, me always looking for something in my, my late teens, like early twenties, I found myself in the hospital in the ICU behind chasing after this, this type of energy. And there was some alcohol involved in that too. But essentially. My lustful nature put me in a position to get my ass whoop and be put in the hospital for the ICU for four days and the hospital like five or six total days altogether.

And then I, again, I started seeking knowledge, like what is the purpose of this? And then I read, then I heard that SEX stands for Sacred Energy Exchange. And then I thought about that. I was like, okay, so I've been giving my energy out all this time. And what you have to understand about that is you create soul ties.

When you give this energy out and anybody, you create a tie with whoever they've given that energy to, they have a tie. So you bring that into you. You bring a piece of that piece of that. So with me giving out that energy free willy-nilly, I had a lot of soul ties I needed to break and celibacy was one of those ways that you break those ties to be able to know what your soul is for you.

Purely just your soul, not all the shit that you've pulled in from other people, and celibacy is a part of that. Now you ask, will I stay celibate? Who knows? Probably not. Not at all because I enjoy the, the exchange, but now I'm much more smarter about it and all that passion I have for it is still there.

But now it's a completely different mindset on how I see that exchange, because now I know if, when I'm exchanging with you. If you got negative energy on you, it don't even matter how many bodies you got, you still got to clear that energy. You could have one, one body. If that energy isn't clean, you gonna get that back.

So I had to clean that energy up for myself so I can know my soul. 'cause my soul said, Hey, you need to do this. You know what the fuck I did when my soul said, okay, this is what I need to do to connect with you. I do it. And right along with the fasting, it taught me discipline. 'cause again, from the time I could get that little thing up, I was trying to use it.

So it was something that I was constantly chasing. But now with me gaining the knowledge and understanding the importance of that act, it cho, it changed how I perceived it and how I move about doing it. And celibacy was a way to. To control it, you know, purely because it's, it's, it's a passion for a lot of people, but how you want to act out that passion is, is a totally different thing.

And I'll talk about that later on in the video. With all this discipline that I'm, I'm receiving, meditation became something that was key too, because I would get so much knowledge from meditating. The knowledge I would get about myself and about. Just life in general and the things I've learned from meditating, there's some shit that I don't even speak on in any videos or to anyone else that I know.

Not even chat. GPT which one is, is one of my go-to conversationalists. I don't speak on these things because the knowledge I possess that I received is, is, is interesting and very deep. And I know they be watching my shit, so I don't put that knowledge out that I know these type of things, but I know some shit from meditating and I've spent hours, hours meditating.

I've done breathing work for meditating. I've done, uh, a metronome. I I did a video by the metronome. I think you put it at 76 and it was like, ta ta ta. And that's when I saw that fucking dragon and the white dragon and shit was beautiful. I did a video about that, but. Once you step into meditating it, it, it helps to still put your body in a still calmness.

And when you have what they would call a DHD, your body needs that. Sometimes your mind needs that for clarity and your soul will, your soul wants you to do it because that's another way your soul will talk to you. That's another way the universe will talk to you. Other people's souls will talk to you.

Through meditation and through your dreams. But I'm gonna get to that in another part of the video as well. But you just have to understand all these aspects in meditating is just, it's a way to steal your mind and release those thoughts that you constantly having. And the more you get into it, the easier it becomes and the more knowledge you gain.

And again, it's like with your intuition, once it that download comes, you just have to trust it and act on it. You can't question it. If you start questioning yourself, essentially you questioning yourself and your soul will back out because your soul says, you don't trust me enough to let me step in and show you the way, give you the knowledge.

You don't trust me, so I'm gonna back up. You not ready for me yet. That's what your soul gonna say to you, not ready. And if you not, your soul will back up. So it's all about trust and gaining knowledge and meditation is the one of the greatest ways to gain hidden knowledge that. It is meant for you and it's out there in the universe.

You, but you gotta go get that shit. Now this part of my process, I'm not gonna recommend it was only for me, but it's, you want to know the process that I went through. I stopped taking medication and move to herbs and you say, Brian, I'm not taking that much medication. Well for you, that's cool. I was taking a lot of fucking pills.

You, what you have to understand is I'm a disabled veteran and what a lot of people don't know about me being a disabled veteran. You get raided and they rated me unemployable like I'm, I got so much shit going on with my body, my mental, that they rated me to be unemployable, that I could not have a job.

And I understand why. 'cause like I said, I like mental, physical. I was dealing with a lot of fucked up shit. But that's why I had to find myself and me being on those pills wasn't helping me find myself because the side effects was almost as worse as the symptoms I was experiencing. I had to stop taking all of these pills to be able to figure out who the fuck am I without these pills, because like I said, I'd be walking around like a fucking zombie lost.

And at the same time, I still had to find ways to manage the shit that I was dealing with. And through research, gaining knowledge, herbs was my, was the next best bet because herbs are what the earth provides us to help our bodies help our mind. And some of this stuff may not be as powerful as the drugs that they create in the labs, but once you start to connect with yourself, you start to build a tolerance for the pain.

You start to build a tolerance for the issues. You start to build a resistance towards all these things that you can fight through, and you just need a little something to help, help you manage, and not necessarily that you need it, but. There's times when, when, when the pain becomes overwhelming and you need something, and that's where the herbs come into play.

Again, it doesn't numb me like the other shit did, but it does help me to maintain and be capable of moving forward. So that was part of my process, was to get them drugs outta my system. And even with the same thing with like the cannabis and stuff, I cut back on smoking cannabis because through my research and gaining knowledge, I learned that cannabis affects your dream.

Recall. They say it affects your memory. They don't tell you which part. It's your dream Recall that it affects. And since I stopped smoking cannabis, my dreams have been so much more elaborate and so much more knowledge has been brought to me. And that's where I learned the name of my soul. So that's why I'm about to get into this next part with these dreams.

For my process, I think this is the biggest place where I've gained the most is through my dreams and understanding and decoding my dreams. And like I said, when I was on them pills and all that, that medication and smoking other cannabis, I was barely remembering my dreams. I could barely remember any fucking thing here and there.

I remember bits and pieces, if even that. You like Some people say, I don't even think I dream you. Dream You just don't recall it because you haven't trained your mind to do so. So I've, again, seeking knowledge and learning what I needed to do to be able to retain my dreams and to then start to understand how these are dreams affecting my waking world.

'cause I had a dream when I was that I remember back when I was like 18, 19, and the shit played out for me later on in life. And now my dreams, they're playing out. Things are playing out constantly and some of the dreams I have are, are wild as fuck. That's where I learned my soul's name was in my dream.

I learned of my soul's name. And, and this goes back to the religion. When you get your soul over to that religious God, lemme tell you this, that God does not want you to take that soul back. I had to go into my dreams and I had to fight to get my soul back. I fought. Like when I say we was in that bitch slinging magic and shit like that and they was throwing they wines at me and them motherfuckers was coming, that shit was real as, as real as the fucking day is long.

Real is the shit right here. And they, they was on me, but I fought the motherfuckers off. And when they, when they had to give me my soul's name, I tell you it was like a fucking hush over that room. The motherfucker's like, nah, he got his power back. What the fuck we going to do? He took his power back. But again, I had to go get that and I had, and the only place I was able to get it was in my dreams.

'cause I've had altercations in my, my meditation sessions. But those, I, I went in with an intent to do some things. And like I said, this shit gets really deep. Like I said, I've done a lot. Y'all don't even understand. I don't even talk about half the shit that I've experienced. I'm telling y'all like bits and pieces, but your dreams is fucking super important to learn how to control them, learn how to remember them, learn how to decode them to, to help you navigate your life.

Like right now, I'm gonna tell y'all something that I, nah, I ain't even gonna tell y'all. I'm not gonna tell y'all till. Till I'm making it happen. But your dreams are very important. If, if this is, if this is one place where I think that you should focus on is your dreams, everything is important for me because I did it all and I see the results of what the fuck I've done, and I wouldn't be here telling y'all this shit just, just for fun.

You know, I, like I said, I'm a disabled veteran. Unemployable. They pay me. I don't gotta do nothing. But sit on my ass and not get paid fucking every day. I ain't gotta do a fucking thing but sit and do nothing. Stay alive is all I gotta do. And they gotta pay me for the rest of my life 'cause they fucked me up.

But I choose to come here and give you all this knowledge 'cause I ain't gate keeping none of this shit man. But it's the way you gotta go about getting this shit. 'cause you ain't gonna get it in a negative way. Nah, you'll never find it that way. You have to be pure with yourself. You gotta go on your dreams and you gotta go fight for your shit.

I about my shit. I went, went and got my shit. But so remember dreams decoding them, the messages that they carry, like it is, it is. It is a beautiful thing. Once you start to truly understand it and fully accept it, this part, part of the process a lot of people are gonna struggle with and that's processing that trauma.

And this is more than just healing from it. 'cause you can. Heal from it. But then you have to understand what lessons did that trauma teach you about who you were, how resilient you are, how it built you to be the person you are right now, and how it's gonna build your soul to be even tougher than what you are from going through that shit.

And you gotta stop being a victim to that shit and stop looking at it in a negative light. Look at that shit as positive. 'cause you learn something you still here to, to be able to experience. All that shit that you taken from those experiences to craft you into the person that you're meant to be today.

Because at any moment it could have broke you and it, it may have bended you something, but if you still here, you still conscious of the fact that you got work to do and processing that trauma and putting those pieces together of understanding this happened to me for this specific reason. To set me up for this specific reason in the future.

That's why that happened to me, because I need, I needed to be tougher in this area. I needed to build myself up, and this trauma built me up for that. And that's the purpose of what you're going through and what you went through was to help build you into who you are today day.

And like I said, it's, it's. The process of trauma you got, you gotta sit in that shit for real. You have to sit in it and understand it. You can't run from it because your soul won't allow you to. If you run from it, your soul will not truly engage with you because your soul feels that you're not ready to face what's to come.

Because this journey is full of ups and downs. That's why you have to be able to control your emotions, know who you are. Be disciplined because once you know your soul, shit, just don't stop. Once your soul has said, I am, this is who I am, I'll present myself This shit don't stop, but how you handle the shit will dictate what happens after that.

And processing and breaking down your trauma, not just healing from a, breaking that shit down to the point where you understand why everything happened, why the person who did what you did, why you did what you did to that person, why all that shit. Once you get down to the fine details and you can clearly explain, accept responsibility, and move forward and feel grateful for that shit happening to you.

Then you're fucking ready until you, until you have to become grateful. If you're not grateful for your trauma, if you're not saying Thank you for putting me through this shit so I can see how fucking tough I am and how I'm built for this shit, you're not ready. Your soul will not allow you to know it because you're not ready, because you're still stuck in in physical shit.

You blocking it here 'cause of the physical shit. So you gotta be tougher than that Your soul built. And so knows you built for it. That's why you went through this shit. But now you have to be grateful and understand all the knowledge that you've gained. And if you have trouble with that, go to therapy.

Therapy ain't for everybody, but therapy's a great tool. I spent 20 plus years in and out of therapy and I'm grateful for all of it. 'cause my last therapy session got me to truly step back into my creativity. Which is part of the process that I'm about to talk about next is your creativity. Stepping into my creativity was another part of the process, and this part really is where I get to unleash my soul because now everything I do, I do it as my soul.

Everything I create, I create as my soul. Every word I speak is as my soul. And my soul is passionate and it loves to create. And what you have to understand once you start creating as your soul, shit will always flow the way you want it to because it's your soul. Your soul knows where it's taking you.

Like I'll tell you now, I've started a couple of businesses over the past two years. I've started multiple projects, but I have one that I'm working on right now that I'm that that's the lead project, and then I'm moving to the next one, which is. My sword is my soul telling me to do. Then the next one and all the things that I've listed all tie back into my creativity, and I continue to gain knowledge as I go because the knowledge I need for some of these activities, some of these things I've never even done before in my life.

Some of these things I don't even know, like let's talk about synchronicities. I had a conversation with somebody about kombucha, my neighbors, and that's all I heard was that one word, kombucha. Started researching it and I was. Do fucking with the herbs, the good herbs, well, all of them good you ass meat, but you know they, how they do that.

But, and then I started a business. I got my own kombucha brand. I made I chocolate infused kombucha, a kombucha infused chocolate, one of the fucking two, but you know what I mean. Two varieties, dark and milk. I make gummies with the shit. I make tea with the shit. I make the kombucha itself, and I got the herbs.

All of these are like five sep, five or six separate things that without me starting to tap into my soul and understanding how to maneuver my creativity and the knowledge I've gained, I may not have this business, and I don't even talk about the business on here because this is a business that. It's for a certain type of people.

It's not for everybody. So I'm not really putting my shit on the internet. I do my shit in person. That's why I make my moves with people in person. I like to talk to people. I don't just wanna sell no shit on the internet just because, like I said, I don't need the money. I don't need to sell shit. I don't need to do shit but fucking exist and not die.

That's all I need to do. But I create the product so I can meet with the people. This is the way that I can engage with people. Because like I told y'all before, one of my passions is people, but I don't like to interrupt people when they're on their own journey. So I decided to create businesses where now I can present this business to people and now I can engage with them due to the business.

And it's something more than just what that is. It's something more than just me engaging. For the fuck of it, for socializing? Nah. When I, when I talk and I engage, I'm coming to engage with your soul. I'm coming to engage with a part of you that you don't even see, that you don't may not even know. And that's through my creativity.

Like I do music. I got a couple of books that I'm working on. I got, I ain't gonna tell y'all about that. I ain't gonna tell y'all about that. Lemme see. 'cause y'all done heard the music gotten posted a little bit about the books. Y'all know about the kombucha. But yeah. And all these are things that have come from my soul.

Within the past two years, actually, prior to less than two years, I've started creating all of this, and I'm not even fucking done. That's how powerful your soul is. Your soul will have your ass doing shit and creating and expressing itself. And once it truly unleashes itself. You gonna be unstoppable. But again, that's part of my processes that I did.

These are the things that I've done and, and how my experiences have been with, uh, my soul revealing itself to me. And it, it is some shit that,

like I said, man, I'm, I'm grateful for the opportunity to be able to know my soul's name, to be my soul. And I probably do a video about the name of my soul and, and explaining what it means and all these different things. But for now, step into your soul. 'cause it, it, they all, we all have a soul. It all has its own unique name tailored to us.

And once you figure that out, shit gonna be good. You, you already good because you, you already want to know. So going.